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No really random things to say today. Or at least, not as random as my last entry. Hahaha XD Have to admit, it felt good to get all that weirdness in me out. But wait until Ash comes over today and we spend the weekend-ish together. oiii. I pity all who will be around us. XD HAHAHA We get hyper off each other EASY. Spend like, not even thirty seconds together and we're bouncing off the walls. Great to have friends like that. Let's see...

Finally working on Ghoulville High. Have one final page to go! Don't ask if I'm going to do another one because honestly, I think I put you guys through enough just from my procrastination on my work as is. That and I just don't feel that inspired to do another ginormous comic like that. I'll still be doing one to 10 pagers (at the most) and stuff but I don't think I'll be up for doing something big like that again for a while.

School's going well; finally decided to step up to the plate and actually take school seriously. Still liking math better than English. Only because I understand the math. That's 'bout it.

Hoping to go to the play tonight; I know I'll at least go tommorow night and crash the cast party with Ash. Can't wait to see and congradualate Crystal personally. I'm a bit worried though about being around Lainey, the drama Queen brat of all times. I thought I got over her and her naivity and her little show and shiz but when she came to Young Life this past monday, I saw her and got flaired up for no reason; just that she was there. I'll be needing to pray up for that. x_x ugh...

Officially addicted to coffee. 'Nough said. XD Hahaha.

Andddd. That's it.

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okay.... I'm coming clean; I can't take it anymore!

Would you believe me if I told you I've been wanting to post a really random journal entry like I just did? ...for months...? but I finally had the guts to finally do it? XD HAHAHAHAHA I don't know what's come over me! T-T LEMME 'LONEEEEE! I had apple pie! And coffee! BADDDD combo! .... pfffffffft NOT. It's actually the thought of being hyper that makes me hyper; sugar and caffeine has no real effect on me when it comes to hyperness or getting a sugar high or anything.

Just... wanted to let you know. It was all just a test. a really. random. test... *Shifts eyes*

*Covers nose with hand* I'M INVISIBLE! *Races away* BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

only thoseee who have seen The Informant or whatever the hell that dumb arsh movie with Matt Damen will understand. XDDDDD

I really REALLY REALLY pity those that watch me. Ohhhh you poor unfortunate souls... The things you have to suffer through...

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My dad took me out to the new Sushi terriaki place in town finally. Everyone in my family had gone at least once except for me so I felt kinda left out but I'm used to it. I'm usually the one who gets left out of things so it's nothing new. My dad and I talked about stuff and I finally gathered the courage to tell him I didn't want to look for a job until after Christmas; gave him my reasons and he understood surprisingly, least it seemed like it anyways. As the conversation went on, he then told me that my eldest sister Heather was planning on getting an apartment with me. WHY is it!? That people make plans that have to do with me without TELLING me? Don't I have a say in something like this?? What if I DON'T want to get an apartment with my sister? I mean, I wouldn't mind I guess, but honestly! Why can't anyone tell me these kind of things? It's frustrating; I feel like they're making decisions for me. I know that's not the case and I know that my sister doesn't want to pressure things on me, but for cereal. If she wanted to move into an apartment with me when I have a job and some money, WHY oh WHY can't (or didn't) she tell me so? Why didn't she tell me before she told the rest of my family? And then I felt like crying when I told my dad on the way home that I was thinking about working at a nursing home when I go look for a job. He didn't take me that seriously, or at least I felt like he didn't. I told him that after becoming better acquanted with Mr. Burger (a man from church who's in his 80's) and getting along with older people like him, I was thinking about getting a job at a nursing home. He glanced at me as he drove.

"As a part-time job? It'll be a good job I guess while you're taking classes."

... I was thinking more like... FULL-TIME...? but I didn't have the strength to speak up. It stung; it really did. I usually don't do this whole 'What's my purpose in life?' kind of thing. EVER. Because I just take it as it goes and I know that God has plans for me, but I felt like maybe working at a nursing home was right for me, that it might be my purpose in life, my life-time job. I don't care about the pay, whatever it may be; I think it's something that I'd love doing. I just love listening to my elders and love trying to show them that there's at least one person that's willing to sit through their stories about when they were younger, about life, about morals, etc. I also like visiting elderly people in nursing homes; how their faces brighten up when a younger person walks in to make conversation. Just thinking about it is bringing me to tears and I'm trying not to cry but it's not working; I'm crying anyway. How often can you make someone's day like that? How often do you feel such gratitude and such love? I don't get that very often. I hope that didn't sound selfish because I'm totally not trying to make it sound that way. I honestly think that this is something I can and would love to do. I'm thinking about fasting for a couple of days to ask God if this is my calling. If it is, I'm going to try to sit down with my dad and tell him how I felt and feel about all of this. I know I'm going to tell my mum about this sooner or later; I always tell her stuff; it's just my dad that I don't tell things anymore because he unintentionally finds faults to what I want to do and it's discouraging sometimes. I know he means well and he wants what's best for me but. Ugh... I'm just going to have to pray about it; it's all I can do.

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My dad's also kinda pushing me to go into a sort of business with my art, kind of pushing me to sell my art and take art commisions online. I like the fact that he's trying to help me find a use with my art but I still have to think about it. So I want to know.

Would you want me to do commissions for you? If not, why not?

So far, I've been told to go for it but I'm still thinking about all of this. I don't like getting excited about things only to be brought down when people say don't bother; that's all.

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Halloween wasn't that big of a deal for me this year. Gave up on my costume; when I had time to work on it, it was already about 8pm yesterday so I thought it pointless to attempt finishing it when I only had the corset done. I was going to go to the corn maze with my sister and some friends last night but when I thought she forgot about me, she came to pick me up later than I expected and took me to her apartment to watch some movies with her and friends. We watched some movie about 3 teenagers that discovered a couple killers or something and they all were killed by the end, the teens and the killers. We kind of talked throughout the movie so I missed quite a few details, so I could be wrong about one person being a killer but it seemed that one guy was a killer's accomplice or something. Anywaysssss. After that we watched Transformers 2. I'm going to just say that I was dissapointed in it; I really was. Sure; the graphics, the action, the details were AMAZING as it was in the first movie but my GOSH. The crudeness; the profanity! Was it REALLY neccessary?? I was soooo dissapointed in that. Again, my sister, friends and I were talking throughout the movie but what we DID hear and watch I was just. So dissapointed. *Le sighhh* It's life for you. Then! My sister and my friends wanted to watch Boogie Man 2. 8DDDD YEAHHHH no thanks I'm going to watch Addams Family mmkay thanks byyyeeee! XD Hahahaha Ughhh. But seriously; I can't take scary and/or gory movies anymore. I feel bad kind of because that's what a lot of my friends are into and that's what they want to watch but I just can't take it, unless we're talking throughout the movie or I'm doing something like making crafts but what's the point in that? If you're going to watch a movie, why would you talk throughout the whole thing so much that where you can't catch what's going on? XD I mean, I talk through movies but I don't do it so much where it distracts everyone from what's going on in the movie and where we can't catch anything to understand it all. ... I don't think anyways. ._. Anyways, Halloween was just. Bleh this year. Hope your guys' was safe and sound and not chaotic or anything.

Yesterday I went to a family friends' 2nd wedding (so to renew their vows. ) Omg... It was so darling. The church and ceremony was small but you could just tell by the way the couple just looked at each other, how they held each others' hands and looked into each others' eyes and how their kids watched them with joy, you just knew that this was love, TRUE love. They're a quite couple and don't have very much but they are so happy and humble and thankful for all that God gave them and continue to give them. It just amazes me. And their children are so stinking adorable! Omg if I ever wanted kids, I'd probably kidnap theirs and adopt them BAHAHAHAHA Okayyy maybe not but omg. These kids are just little angels. They're so well tempered and well mannered. It's just amazing. This family are truly blessed by God and you can so see Him through each and every one of them. I was so happy for them. The parents were married for 13 years yesterday and are still going strong. I'm just so happy for them.

My dad's kinda pushing me to go into a sort of business with my art, kind of pushing me to sell my art and take art commisions online. I like the fact that he's trying to help me find a use with my art but I still have to think about it. So I want to know.

Would you want me to do commissions for you? If not, why not?

So far, I've been told to go for it but I'm still thinking about all of this. I don't like getting excited about things only to be brought down when people say don't bother; that's all.

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I supposeeee you guys want an update on my lifeee. Hahaha. Been a few dayss since I've said anything though I did submit a few things...finally. Hahaha. Ummm let's seeee. Ear infection is going away; most the swelling had gone down and it's been draining; good thing methinks. Healed most the way in less than a week no less too so I'm pleased. College has been all right; trying not to stress or worry about anything. My dad's been kind of pissy about my teachers letting me out of class early because 'I'm not getting my money's worth.' I understand that, but... honestly. XD I'm glad I can escape the freezing rooms. x_x it's furcking cold in them thar roomsss! Espicially my English class room. ><; UGH. T-T Turn up the heat for cereal! Tonight was opening night for my high school's fall play, Cinderella. I'm happy for them espicially for Crystal; I've been telling her that she'll be getting a good role and she did! Got Cinderella. Hahahaha. So I called her before I went to class and told her how proud I was of her and told her I'll be going to the performance next weekend because I have a wedding ceremony to go to on Saturday, thus meaning I can't go to the matinee. T-T Oh wellll. Least I'll be going. Not going to miss it for the world! Being onstage myself several times before; I know how much work it is and how stressful it can really be; I'd be ashamed of myself if I didn't go to support my high school drama program. Halloween... I don't think I'm going to be doing anything. Have a long arsh driveway that people don't bother driving up for trick-or-treating PLUS I live out in the country so I don't have to worry about getting candy for the lil' buggers. Hahahaha. XD Costume... I actually... started making it. o_o But I stopped because I didn't have anything else to work on due to lack of materials. XD HAHAHAHAHA I found some extra brown fabric I used for my Sally dress a couple years ago and asked my mum to teach me how to use the sewing machine. 8D So I have the corset; it's just a matter of making the dress now. I dunno if I'll actually be motivating myself to do it though, since I'm not doing anything for Halloween but I dunno. We'll see. I WAS hoping to go to be with Ash for the weekend but my parents said noo. T-T Oh welllll. Next time for sure Ash. Um. that's really about it other than I'm still asking for your guys' input on whether I should bother with commissions or not.

YAY FOR LONG WEEK SUMMARY JOURNAL ENTRY THINGYYYY!!

My dad's kinda pushing me to go into a sort of business with my art, kind of pushing me to sell my art and take art commisions online. I like the fact that he's trying to help me find a use with my art but I still have to think about it. So I want to know.

Would you want me to do commissions for you? If not, why not?

I'm still thinking about all of this but I just want some feedback before I get ahead of myself. I don't like getting excited about things only to be brought down when people say don't bother; that's all.

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